Yesterday ... I was 100% serious when I told you that I LOVE doing things for my Young Ones, Big Kids, and Adopted Big Kids, because I am BLESSED ... it is an HONOR ... it is a PRIVILEGE.
Today ... while I know that yesterday's post was TRUTH
... I'm not quite feeling the same way.
Today, I am ...
... EXHAUSTED
... FRUSTRATED
... HURT
all because of those very same "kids",
that I was so blessed by yesterday.
Yesterday ... I said that I wasn't questioning
why I do the things that I do.
Today ... I don't know how I can possibly drive 8 Young Ones
and Big Kids to Texas for the wedding.
Yesterday ... I was so confident in all that is
coming up in the next 6 weeks.
Today ... I am completely OVERWHELMED!
... when can I finish the reception invitations?
... how am I going to be ready to go to OR next week,
and MN the following week?
... when am I going to finish planning the WA reception?
... when am I going to have 20 hours to do the
girls' braids before the wedding?
... how can I drive to TX in 5 days,
and back the following week?
... how are we going to pay for the gas, hotels,
and food for this 14 day trip?
(the Big Kids are paying the costs associated
with the "moving" trips to CA and MN,
but Papa & Mama are in charge of the TX trip.)
Yesterday ... I ran errands, went out to dinner, spent a couple
of hours visiting with Jeremiah.
Today ... I walked on the treadmill (8 hours ago),
and that was the last thing I accomplished.
I don't have the energy to even look at my "to-do" list.
I WANT to crawl into bed and
pull the covers up over my head.
I NEED to head to the living room
to complete the invitation project.
PRAYING that tomorrow is a better day.
Welcome to Our Journey of Faith. My blog is a place where I share the joys and trials of living a faith-filled life as the mother of an extra large (12 children) homeschooling family, and my prayer is that it brings encouragement to others to live their lives as an adventure of faith, as well.
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Oh, I can relate! Get some sleep and you'll be right back to your last post about the honor, privilege, and blessing to be with your kids. It'll all come back. Right now you are just tired. And that is entirely understandable!!!
ReplyDeletePraying for strength!!! What seems impossible to man is POSSIBLE with God :) praying....
ReplyDeleteIsn't that just like Satan to try to steal your joy from you? Cling to Jesus my friend. He gave you all those blessings because He knows YOU CAN do it all with JOY because of who you are in HIM. Love you and will be praying. ((HUGS)) Amy
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate...one days if feels great and the next day, S*tan comes in and steals all the joy. I will be praying for you this week.
ReplyDeleteSorry you are having a rough day. Know that God is in control and knows all that needs to be done, continue to trust in Him. Hope you get lots of rest tonight and tomorrow is a fresh start for you.
ReplyDeleteOh I remember!
ReplyDeleteOne small step at a time girl!
Remember I fried my adrenals trying to do it all and was no good for anything for about a month after my crash!
Take what is MOST important at a time.
It will get done, but maybe not the way you envisioned it, and definately not in your own strength.
Praying for you for peace that passes all understanding. Stand in it!
Your Friend,
Donna