I want to respond to a few of the thoughts and questions that have come up this week, in the comments and in personal emails to me.
First of all, though, a BIG THANK YOU for ALL of your love and support. You have no idea how much your words of encouragement and your prayers have meant to me. (As most of you know, we don't have any involved extended family. We don't have any grandparents, aunts, uncles, or cousins that we call on in times of crisis. No. YOU are our family, and we appreciate you all so very much.)
Some of you may have struggled with the fact that I am even asking the question, "Why?". Some people believe that we should never question God. As I said in my last post, I am not one that usually questions God. However, in Bible Study Fellowship this year, our Teaching Leader talked about the times we question God, and she said something that really struck me. She said ...
As I said in my last post, I am not in any way doubting my faith; yet I am honestly asking the Lord to show me some of the "Why?"
"Finding you and reading your posts I have found strength in your faith. I cry when you go through struggles but I see how you pick yourself up and find a way to keep your family going. You give me hope. You have helped me to not feel so alone in the world. I see you keep going and still have faith. It gets shaken, I see that, but you still hold on. It makes me feel like I can too. You are an example and light to others. ... I thank you. Thank you for your light. You don't hide it."