A Tough Note to Write

Thank you, Friends, for all of your continued prayers for our job situation.  My interview went well on Monday.  However ... after much prayer (and restless sleep) ... the Lord showed me once again that this "perfect job" was not for me.  Really, Lord?!?!  Are you sure?!?!

Here is the note that I wrote tonight ...

Dear _______

After much thought and prayer, it is clear that I must remove my name from consideration for your Executive Assistant position.

While I am confident that I have the ability to do the job ... and we are in near desperate need of an income ... I cannot with all honesty say that my "Professional Goal" would be to be an Executive Assistant.  I could do it: and I could do it well.  But, because of my life experiences, and my passion to minister to others out of those experiences, I cannot say that I wouldn't ever want to be more involved in the ministry you have to couples.

I hope you will find just the right person for this position.  My husband and I are going to continue trusting that the Lord will provide a job for him; and I am going to pursue speaking and writing opportunities through my own ministry.

While I am sad that I am withdrawing my name, and concerned that this has not led to an income opportunity, I believe that the process you have walked me through has helped me to re-define what the Lord is calling me to.  Thank you.

I wish you all the best.

Laurel

Oh. So. Hard.

However ... they made it exceedingly clear that they did not want me to have any hopes/dreams/ideas of being more involved in the ministry side of things, and that I must be content as the "behind the scenes" assistant.  (Which is totally their prerogative to do ... but I couldn't honestly say I wouldn't have those hopes and dreams.)

During the interview, they asked me what my Personal and Professional Life Goals were.  Then, clearly being concerned with my response, at the end of the interview they asked me to write them a 1 page overview of my Personal Goals and Professional Goals.  That was when I realized that I couldn't say that my Professional Goal was to be an Executive Assistant.  Nope.  Couldn't do it.

At this time ...

I don't believe that I am supposed to

be pursuing any job opportunities.

I am supposed to be home with my kids.

I am supposed to be focusing on my "Career"

of being a Wife, Mama, and Soon-to-be-Grandma.

I am supposed to rebuild my ministry, 

A Journey of Faith,

that I put on hold a few years ago.

I must continue to trust the Lord for his provision.

I must continue to trust that my dear husband

will be able to find work.

I must continue to be diligent about

being financially frugal.

Again ...

We continue to walk this journey in FAITH.

We continue to TRUST the LORD for His Provision.

We continue to SEEK the LORD for His Wisdom.

Thanks for your prayers.

I couldn't walk this journey without your

love, support, and encouragement.

Just so you know ...

Jim and I are completely unified in this decision,

and at peace, that the Lord is directing this process.