I wrote a post on September 13th telling you that . . .
I told you that . . .
20 of the next 31 days will be FILLED with FAMILY and FRIENDS and FUN, FUN, FUN !!!
Well . . .
. . . my calendar WAS Full.
. . . the past month WAS filled with Family, Friends, and Fun.
. . . we arrived home from our 30th Anniversary Trip on October 13th.
. . . we had another CRAZY BUSY weekend on the 20th-21st.
. . . and then I pretty much CRASHED.
I am . . .
. . . Just. Plain. Worn. Out.
. . . trying to catch my breath.
. . . trying to get back into the swing of "normal".
I am . . .
. . . tired of being on this diet.
. . . having a hard time cooking for the rest of the family.
. . . wishing I could lose weight faster.
I am . . .
. . . struggling with the loss of family relationships.
. . . wondering if we will ever be a "big happy family" again.
. . . continuing to pray for healing and restoration.
I am . . .
. . . wondering where I fit at our new church.
. . . hoping to build a few deep friendships there.
. . . still feeling "new" and "not in the group".
Don't worry . . .
. . . I'm not sitting in a mud puddle.
. . . I'm not seriously depressed.
. . . I just have hardly had time to THINK the past month,
. . . and now some of the tough topics have returned to my mind.
Just bein' real here . . .
my life is not all "Sunshine & Beaches" . . .
I think I'll go take an afternoon nap . . .
I am . . .
. . . tired of being on this diet.
. . . having a hard time cooking for the rest of the family.
. . . wishing I could lose weight faster.
I am . . .
. . . struggling with the loss of family relationships.
. . . wondering if we will ever be a "big happy family" again.
. . . continuing to pray for healing and restoration.
I am . . .
. . . wondering where I fit at our new church.
. . . hoping to build a few deep friendships there.
. . . still feeling "new" and "not in the group".
Don't worry . . .
. . . I'm not sitting in a mud puddle.
. . . I'm not seriously depressed.
. . . I just have hardly had time to THINK the past month,
. . . and now some of the tough topics have returned to my mind.
Just bein' real here . . .
my life is not all "Sunshine & Beaches" . . .
I think I'll go take an afternoon nap . . .
Be still; let God heal.
ReplyDeleteRest up my friend...
God has plenty of joys to grace you with;
as your mama heart tugs at the sad things, there too, is the small blessings in everyday that seem to whisper by us... so... what makes you smile?
~Sheri
Crashing sounds pretty reasonable to me after that schedule! :-) I'm glad you have all those memories...there's just always that "let down" after the fact for me anyway.... Drink something yummy and hot (one of those fabulous sounding drinks you talk about) and relax for a few days!
ReplyDeleteThank you for being real. Many of us are facing some of those same things with you. I'm not losing weight. My favorite foods are full of fat. A child I kicked out of the house twice is arriving tonight for a week long visit and I have no idea what our relationship is now and what it will be after a week. He's RAD so it's not like we can sit down and talk about it. We both put on our mask and act like things are great. A child who has been in counseling for stealing pretty much emptied her teacher's candy treasure chest into her backpack (after the teacher seeing her with it and telling her to put it down and not touch it again) and ate it all the way home, hid the wrappers, lied when they were found, has no remorse, is angry at me for busting her on it. etc. I'm NOT saying this to make it all about me, just to say that you aren't alone and we will all stand beside you in whatever you face because many of us knows what some of it feels like. Maybe not the same things but the loss of relationships, big time loss of dreams etc.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you. Get some sleep. Take some time for yourself. Eat something fattening just today and worry about it tomorrow!!!!
Thanks, Kathy.
DeleteAlways good to hear from you. So sorry that things have been tough for you. I will pray for you this week, as your son is home. So hard.
And . . . the stolen candy . . . ugh. So. Not. Fun.
Hugs!
Laurel
Let's get together soon! It would be hard to get back into the swing of things. This diet stuff is tough. Its like twice the hard work all the eating to get this way was. What's up with that? So unfair.
ReplyDeleteHugs friend. I am here if you need to talk!