Some days it is hard to put one foot in front of another.
Some days I lay awake for hours at night . . .
. . . wondering what went wrong?
. . . wondering what I can possibly do to make things right?
. . . wondering if we will ever see even a faint light at the end of the dark tunnel.
Somedays I don't seem to have a tear left in me . . .
. . . my eyes are dry, yet my heart is weeping.
Somedays the memories of the pain are nearly crushing.
Somedays I just don't have the energy to keep fighting for what is right . . .
. . . for my family.
. . . for the truth.
Somedays I just don't have the energy to keep fighting for what is right . . .
. . . for my family.
. . . for the truth.
Somedays I have a very difficult time finding hope for better days.
Somedays my mind is wracked with unanswered questions:
. . . why?
. . . how?
. . . what now?
Please pray for our family this week.
Laurel,
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for everything you are going through. It makes me worry though. We try so hard as parents to raise our kids the right way. We read all the right books and watch parenting videos and go to parenting seminars etc etc. I'm curious though....have you been able to have an opportunity to talk to some of your big kids about what they feel went wrong? Maybe it was nothing you did "wrong" and it was just their own choices but I am just wondering if you have been able to ask them those serious heart-to-heart questions if they have opened up to you anything insightful that would be of help to us younger moms.
I know personally of some wonderful people with older kids like yours who "lost" 3 of their big kids in a really bad way. The relationships were completely shattered and they could not figure out what went wrong. Finally after several years they are just now putting the pieces together after some counseling about what triggered this all in the first place.
Any insight you could offer would be so helpful. Thank you so much for being so honest and open.
Hugs to you today Laurel! Some anniversaries just stink! You are strong, beautiful, and loved!
ReplyDeleteThanks. Yes, today is the "anniversary" of the worst day of my life. Today, I am not feeling very strong, beautiful, or loved.
DeleteThanks for your encouragement.
So sorry for the hard days. Praying with you!
ReplyDelete(((hugs))) & prayers to you! The enemy would love for you to lose the battle this day... keep your chin up, your heart open, and your prayers unceasing... on this day you can choose to claim victory. Not for what the struggles continue to be, but for what you have overcome through this year... you, my friend, are beautiful!!!
ReplyDelete~Sheri
Sweet sister in the Lord, I don't know what roads you have traveled with your children, but we have traveled some rough roads with ours. We still do not have all the answers, nor do we agree on the all the ones we seem to think we know answers too. I am praying for you. God Knows the Truth...I pray peace for you as a mom and as a wife and I pray that your children would seek their Heavenly Father for wisdom as they have been taught. My boys walk far from the Lord.....I trust they will come back some day to what they have been taught and I hold on to that. God bless you. You are a beautiful woman of the Lord.....I wished you lived closer to Michigan so we could share a cup of coffee.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you as well as many, but have found your blog recently. We too have had heartache with our children and our boys walk far from the Lord. I hold on to what they have been taught and pray that they will come back to the truth they were taught. I know the pain when communication breaks down. I don't know if that is so in your family, but it has been so in ours too many times. And it has been broken down on both the parents' side and the children's side. I know that our children know we love them and yet it seems as though they throw what most important and holy and true to us in our face. I am praying for your family. I covet your prayers for mine. I wish that Michigan were a little closer so that we could share a cup of coffee and pray together....e-mail anytime. Love in Him.....Another mom
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ReplyDeletePraying for you! Wish I could come over for a late night of coffee and chatting! Miss you bunches :)
ReplyDeleteMy sweet friend, I am so sorry that this season is beyond hard for you. But sometimes just continuing to love and and pray and put one foot in front of the other has to be enough. As we have heard of the shooting this weekend I know we just have to keep trying and praying and advocating. God doesn't call the equipped, he equips the called. We are both called. We will persevere because that's what He knows we will do. Love you.
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