In the past 18 months,
there have been a LOT of things that I could NOT control:
I could not control our Marriage Crisis.
I could do my part to work through the issues.
But, ultimately, I could not control the final outcome.
(I praise Jesus that HE was in control, and that
our marriage survived a significant crisis.)
I could not control my surprise pregnancy at age 49;
nor could I control the loss of our precious child
(that we were sooooo..... excited about).
I can stand and stare at all of the
adorable pictures of the babies that I've had.
I can love and adore my grandson.
But, I cannot control the fact that, at age 50,
I will most likely never again have the
opportunity to carry a child in my womb.
I cannot control Jim's unemployment.
I can help in any way that he wants me to.
I can look for jobs on Craigslist.
I can help fill out job applications.
But, I cannot control any job offers.
I cannot control the Financial Stress.
I can budget carefully.
I can be as frugal as possible.
I can sell my car (which I did last fall).
But, I cannot control the loss of sufficient income.
I cannot control Rachel's R.A.D. or Depression.
I can love her unconditionally.
I can do all I can to "not provoke her to anger".
I can pray for her.
I can seek medical and psychological help for her.
But, ultimately, I cannot control Rachel's behavior.
I cannot control the weather.
You know . . . if I focused on all of the Tough Stuff that I really have no control over,
I could get pretty depressed. However, I am choosing instead to take a look
at the areas of my life that I CAN control.
On Friday, after 18 months of overwhelming TOUGH STUFF,
I decided to jump back into my Takin' Care of Mama plan.
I am more than READY to Take Control of the few areas that I can.
I can control what food goes into my mouth.
I can take charge of my diet.
I can fight the urge to eat something
just because it looks good or smells good.
I can walk out of the room if I have to,
to avoid the kitchen temptations.
On Friday, I started a very structured diet plan,
with the wonderful support of a friend
who is also on the same plan
(and has lost a lot of weight in 6 weeks).
I can control the amount of exercise I get.
I can dust off the treadmill.
I can put on my walking shoes.
I can walk . . . and walk . . . and walk.
On Friday, I got up an walked 1 1/2 miles.
I can control the time I spend in God's Word.
I can get up and pick up my Bible.
I can set aside time to Pray.
I can do my best to block out distractions.
On Friday, I started the
"Read the Bible in 90 Days" plan.
My girlfriend that I am doing the diet plan with
is also walking through some TOUGH adoption stuff,
and TOUGH stuff with her Teens and Big Kids.
She's the one that encouraged me to Take Control
of the very limited areas that we can control,
rather than drowning in a sea of situations we cannot control.
How about YOU?
Are you drowning in a sea of uncontrollable situations?
Are there any areas of your life that you need to Take Control of?
Do any of you need to start a Takin' Care of Mama plan, with me?
I'd love to support and encourage you in your goals.